So...I never thought of using this thing to update my thoughts. LMAO.
I've been thinking of doing that now. It is emotion that evokes how we feel and represent is it not? It is what makes us want to create art and express things the way we want to.

On to thought number one.

Distance.
I never thought a bond I had created with someone could slowly fade. It almost vanishes. A childhood I had known for half my life, and so I've watch her grown up. I've laughed, cried, hated, loved this person. They're not the same anymore. We still talk. She's in fact really close to my sister as they have become best friends and the bond that we had is broken. I want to save her. Save her from what she is doing to herself. Save her from what she has become. Let her know that she does have potential to do what she dreams.
But our cross do not pass anymore. They may never cross again.
I once had a falling out with an ex-friend. She was always supportive, wise, always knew what to say. The problem was I couldn't think for myself and kept things I actually felt inside. When she found out, she loathed me. Hated me for the fake person I was being.
I thought I wouldn't regret it if we had stopped talking.
But I missed that she was a person that I could turn to.
I felt guilty for the person I was being.
But she told me that things would happen for a reason, bonds we make and break happen for a reason. Even if she still didn't like me much anymore, she has respect. And I respect her highly. So many times I wanted to tell her that I missed her and wanted us to be friends again.
But I figured, the same experience would repeat.
So I learn and grew stronger from this.

So just maybe I have to let her go. Let her do this on her own.
It is her fight.

Thought #2.

Although one may not like someone, if they are friends with them, shouldn't they try to get along or tolerate them? When choosing sides, it creates a tension. People begin to side with others and a group splits apart. Life throws stupid things at you. Some people just fit together because well, you fit with those that tend to be similar to you right? Otherwise too many differences is too much to not get along.

Why do people choose to not like someone for no apparent reason? Is it jealousy? Is it this that we have heard? Or it is that you remind someone of someone you didn't like? It's stupid right? We hear that phrase all the time, "Don't judge a book by its cover." No one seems to listen to what they say. It is hypocritical, but I do that as well, but I try to live by what I say or feel.
One person who means the world to me said, "don't let your emotions take over you". It may be dumb, but it means a lot to me because it is one of my weaknesses.

Anyways...I just needed to get things out of my mind somehow. I'll sleep nice tonight. lol